December 15, 2009

The lost of you

Dear Baby Maya,


I had never tell you how I felt about you but I know you had always know and here I'm writing you a note. To let you know how much I missed you and shall you never been forgotten for you had already taken a big space in my heart.





The first time when I saw you at the home breeder, you already caught my attention. You were so mischievous running and playing around being the big bully among your own siblings. Climbing all over me trying very hard to get my attention. From the day we brought you home, you are already a part of the family. Never had we treated you as a pet. We slept on the same bed, share the same food, I will sooth you to sleep on my lap, kissing you every day and night and you kissed me back with your saliva all over my face, you always have your own character and you make me loves you more and more each day. And we both showered each other with love.





I still remember when you were just a baby, you just love cuddling with anything that is soft, loves jump on to my bed and making paw prints on my white bed sheet and I'll be screaming my lungs out but you never know when I was angry because you are still a baby. But I never blame you for that. Still remember the first time you came home knowing Fluffy as the sire of the house, oh.....he hated you so much that time but you never stop disturbing him everyday, till today both of you became a good companion.



You had always been very obedient and tame just that when you are younger, you are a bit more aggressive, never get tired. You seldom bark, you only bark at a snail and talked to the neighbours dog. And you howl like a wolf, you don't speak clearly. You make baby howl tone only when playing with Fluffy. You love to be pampered, hugged, you love it when we rub your face, your chin and squeeze your cheek. You love staying indoor because indoor is cooler but when it's raining, you love to stay under the rain looking up at the rainy sky and let the water drop onto your face.

When you see my car you will stop doing whatever naughty things and pretend to be good girl sit and wait for me to come in and charging towards me and jump on me when you see me home. When I said ''Maya, what is this?'' You will run and hide, your tail will drop when you see me holding the cane.



Everyone who sees you says that you look big and fierce just because you have the panda eye around your eyes but to me, you are always small in the heart and innocent in the eyes.



I couldn't believe it that we could only celebrate one X'mas, one CNY and your one year old birthday. I'm sorry that I couldn't protect you forcibly being taken away. I could have seen that coming and you sense something is not right. Your eyes, that night when you look at me, wanted to come indoor trying to tell me something but I was too blinded to see it. I'm sorry Maya, so sorry for not letting you do what you wanted.

After the night you were taken away, Fluffy was in the garden the whole morning looking out from the gate and waiting knowing that something has happen to you which really gives me an heartache. The morning when I found out that you were gone, I drove to work but the road seems to be longer like it used to be. Makes me think a lot till tears roll down from my eyes, for knowing the fact that you are really gone. Couldn't concentrate in work on that day, everyone who known you concerns about you and tears roll down again while I was doing the explanation. Its too hurt and so hard for me to explain that you are no longer here, how you were being taken.


Although you are no longer here with us but I will always keep the memories that you had created for us. I will still hope that one day I'll see you again and bring you back to our place , a place call home. I can never find another one like you. I miss you Baby Maya.

October 19, 2009

Midst Memories

The memories that has been created,
The magical moments,
The sound of laughter,
The silent cries that is shared,
The fairytale stories that is being mentioned,
But,
What if there's no more memories?
What if there's no more moments?
What if there's no more laughter?
What if there's no more cries?
What if there's no more fairytale stories?

Everyday memories are being created,
But how many of them will be remembered?
Have you ever take a moment everyday to refresh mind, what memories have you created on that day?
Did you put a smile on someones face?
Did you made someone sad?
Did you made someone thinking?
Did you hurt someone?
Did someone put a smile on your face?
Did someone made you sad?
Did someone made you thinking?
Did someone hurt you?

For me, I do take a moment to remember the memories, no matter is the old ones or new ones, sad ones or happy ones. Still it is worth for a second thought.

August 16, 2009

Sorrows

Tired of having all the bereavement for the past years,
Trying to drown all the sorrows with the drink of potion towards happiness,
Together, burning the weed every night just to replace sleeping pills,
Wished upon the stars, hoping the sorrows will be wiped off the next day,
But still am feeling heavy hearted to leave the sorrows behind,
Thinking of departing with all the memories that we wrote in the diary,
A strong willpower is all I need now,
Explaination towards this sorrows has become an end,
Apologies that couldn't be explain because of human selfishness,
One day apologies will be accepted,
Heavy hearted is the feeling now but this is the best way,
Because freedom that's what a swallow need,
Appreciation for the past years is well appreciated and will be kept well,
Promises that has been made will be fulfilled,
Always and forever.

July 15, 2009

The Dwell

It happens
It really happens
It was so real
It was mesmerizing
It was like a poison
It make you go weak
It make your knees go weak
It was thrilling
It was excited
It gaves the feeling that once lost
It gaves the memories, the scenes
It doesn't feels like a dream
And because it is
I shall deny it to keep the flow going
But at least
It was once real

June 26, 2009

Borderlines

Christine is standing between the borderlines.

WHERE DO I STAND???
WHICH SIDE SHOULD I GO TO???
I WANT TO GET BACK ON TRACK,
I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO THE OLD TRACK !!!

Troublemakers please go away and make your own life and stop messing with mine.

Please just leave me alone.
I'm BEGGING YOU !!! PLEASE STOP !!!


June 18, 2009

The Fantasyland


Just a lil colour....

Lost in space

Sweet-Lil-Devilish has become the Sweet-Totally-Deadblog. OMG !!! But this won't be long. :P
The next post is just to spice up a lil in my blogosphere.

April 19, 2009

Dead Blog

I am so lost of track now. I don't know from where should I start or should I say continue my blog. There's so much that I wanted to blog about but it seems that I don't have the drive to blog it. Perhaps I should make my blog to be alive all over again. It's so dead now. I wonder does anyone still visit my blog? Please do leave me comment if you do.

I promise I'll update my blog from where I've stop. But I don't know why this promise can never made up.

Anyhow, I'll try my very best.

April 7, 2009

Frustrated in a Sarcastic Way

What have I done to deserve a week like this?

I had a tiring, worrying, sleepless nights over the weekend and I even dreamed of devils and zombies and even death.

No, I don't want death to happen. Because everything has not been fulfilled yet. Reunion has not been made but I'm just so scared that death comes first before reunion.

Because of all the hazardous world, the cruelty of how god treated an innocent person taking away his life before he could have a reunion with his family. I just couldn't accept the fact.

All that I ask for now is to find a place for me to be myself, a space for me to take a deep breath, a place where I could free my mind. Then come back and face the ungliest side of the world.


It's just some random babbling on words of my own. A way for me to let things go. Sometimes I don't even know what I'm writing about.

Sorry if you does not understand and thank you for spending your time to read some craps.

March 2, 2009

Mesmerized

I don't know how to describe it but all I can say is,

"It was so mesmerizing that you almost couldn't take your eyes off it"


February 16, 2009

Let's leave the shits behind and start a-fresh

YESH !!! I have always love when a new year has come. Everything starts a-new which I really mean EVERYTHING. Basically, I still have my happenings post in 2008 which I have yet to blog about it but since now is like 2009 so let me just leave those behind and start everything starting from Jan 2009.

Ok, I will update my happenings starting 2009 soon. I know I have not been a good blogger for the past few months and I know is time for me to pull up my ass and start blogging like nobody's business. Just give me some time to edit my pichas. Till then, toodles.

January 5, 2009

Thank you

Thanks to 2009;
Bye bye to 2008,

Thanks to you;
Sorry for you,

Thanks to your lie;
Sorry for your reason,

Thanks to your girlfriend;
Sorry for your girlfriend.

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Thank you.....

.....for letting me know who you really are

.....for letting me know whats real and whats not (whatever it is all are not real)

.....for letting me know that your words cannot be trusted

.....for letting me know is it worth for me to still remain you in my friends list

.....for letting me know where I should go now

.....for letting me know how good you are in acting

.....for letting me know the black and white

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Fool me once,
Shame on you,
Fool me twice,
Shame one me,
But a fool like you can only fool me once.


Thanks for turning my sky from dark to bright.